Chasing Rainbows

you guys are so incredible. I started writing these kind of just as therapy for myself but wow your feedback is amazing. This post is going to be all about my experience with the trigger shot process A little science first there are many different types of trigger shots the one I did was called Ovidrel. It's basically a HCG injection. HCG is used to cause ovulation and helps support the development of an egg in your ovary. It then makes the egg release so you ca make a baby. My experience: First off Jay had to do the injection because y'all know I'm terrified of any needle besides a tattoo one haha.  He did a great job, I joke with him and say he enjoyed it a little to much hahaha. Pain wise it wasn't to bad, the medication itself burned a little going in. I thought the shot part was going to be the worse but little did I know the worse was to come I usually research the hell out of any medication I'm taking but for some reason I forgot to with the trigge...

First of all I'm so sorry I haven't been posting for those of you who enjoy following these. Laney chewed my computer charger into pieces 🙈I'm writing this on my phone so it might not be the best quality. I'm a woman and I'm not stupid I know when people talk about me behind my back. I have heard people whisper that statement as I have walked by and he said she said conversations.  It's always  "wow she's gotten big" or " Jenna's getting fat". I used to let it bother me terribly but then I think to myself these things I was pregnant two different times within 6 months. If you have been pregnant before you know you gain weight even if your not "showing" yet. I gained 20 pounds between those two pregnancies. I would love to go back and have beautiful babies as a result of one of those pregnancies but that just wasn't in the cards for us at that time. I was emotionally drained and food helped to cheer me up. S...

There are a few positive things that have come from going through this tough year. I have learned so much! I now realize what is really important in life and what isn't. I will NOT tolerate stupid caddy "drama" because in the whole scope of things there are bigger problems in this world. I could care less if someone talked about me behind me back, when before it would fire me up. I let things go more so then before. I guess when you experience heartbreak like we have it puts things into prospective. Getting angry at he fertility treatment bills we have to pay is logical, getting angry because someone called me fat so trivial at this point. So I have truly grown as a person. It brought me closer to my husband. Of course we were already very close, but going through things sometimes brings you even closer. Jay has never let me feel alone in this process he is there literally every step of the way. He even goes to EVERY...

"Wow you guys are so busy" its a phrase we hear all the time. Now if you do not know us personally I will give you a little run down of our life. I own my own spa and work there full time. I also own my own skin care business, and am a traveling makeup artist. My husband has a full time job also a DJ business, and photography business business on the side. With all of this we also decided to help run a not for profit coffee shop at our church thats open every day. So as you can see were basically busy busy busy every day. Add on our loves,hiking, kayaking, concerts and anything  going on at our church and what do you get???? Zero down time. So that brings me to the title. People often look at Jay and I and think we do way to much. We spread ourselves thin. What they don't understand is thats the way we keep our sanity. When we had to much down time all we thought about were the losses of our babies. We thought about what co...

I only promote products that I feel truly work. With that being said I have an incredible testimony to share with you all. Like most women I break out terribly whenever something hormone related is going in in my body. When I was pregnant I didn't have that beautiful glow some pregnant women had, no I had terrible acne. When I'm about to start my period what do I get ACNE. So you can imagine how nervous I was to go on a hormone medication. I was convinced my skin was going to be worse then ever, and even bought new makeup for my airbrush so I could cover it all.  I found out about this company called Aloette and fell in love. The products are all farm to jar and they use their own Aloeganic organic aloe. I needed a new product line for the Spa so decided to start using that and gradually started buying more and more products to use at B Flawless Spa. Whenever I would find someth...

Letrozole or more commonly known as Femara is what I have been taking for four days now. I was terrified to start this medication because its not made to treat infertility but its actually a breast cancer hormone based chemotherapy drug. The reason doctors prescribe Femara for infertility patients is because it basically suppresses estrogen levels and tricks your body into producing FSH (follicle stimulating hormone). In our case they believe this will form a more mature viable follicle that will produce a more viable egg. The side effects of this fertility drug is very similar to the more familiar one Clomid. I was so nervous because ill admit I'm on tons of blogs and message boards and have been for a year now researching miscarriage and infertility trying to find out whats wrong with me. On all these message boards women are always talking about their side effects on these fertility drugs. The common side effe...

So this is absolutely insane to me and I'm sure a lot of you are unaware because we had no clue. Infertility treatments of any kind are usually not covered at all by insurance companies. Its considered elective, but remember I did not ELECT to not be able to have a baby. Again like in a previous post were not wanting sympathy or anything but I just want to share how insane this truly is. Jay and I are just doing what they consider the basic infertility treatments. We are not doing IVF or IUI which are more commonly known about. We are doing medications to help produce a healthier egg.  Because of this medication We have to have an ultrasound almost every week. If I get pregnant we have them until I am 10 weeks pregnant. Ready for the kicker, none of them are covered by insurance because they are considered elective. At first Jay and I said okay no problem we ma...