Chasing Rainbows

Well here we are again typing these on my phone because my precious Laney chewed every computer cord in the house (and yes the were put out of her reach or so we thought) Today I want to talk about my medical care and how important doctors really are on this infertility journey. I have seen from so many others before we started going through this loved ones posting how much they adore their doctors or fertility specialists. Me looking in from the outside thought that was odd, but boy has my tune changed. If you have read my previous blogs you will know what a terrible doctor I had with my miscarriage back in September. I was terrified to go to a doctor after that. With the suggestion of tons of clients and friends I found my current OB. The office she works at stays so busy and I had to wait three months. That was frustrating but I knew in my heart that she must be good because of this wait. I was so right she walked into the room and immediately I felt comforted. She talked t

If you have any kind of tragedy or health problem you will probably really understand this post today. Today is all about message boards. I have a love hate relationship with message boards. Sometimes they can be such great help and other times they can depress you even more. The pros of message boards and online support groups. I have met some really amazing women in the groups I'm in and message boards I am on. Its a wonderful way to not feel alone when dealing with something in your life. When I was going through testing they were there to suggest things to test for that might not typically be tested. They answer so many questions that I have that are so little I don't want to bother the doctor with. These women have been so supportive and encouraging. I truly have developed a friendship with these women I have never met but are going through the same things I am. We encourage and pray for each other and that's just incredible. The cons of message boards. The hat

"There is always adoption" is a phrase we hear very often. Now unlike my post earlier this week this phrase actually never bothers me. We are very open to adoption but most people do not know the facts of adoption. Here are the reasons adoption isn't in the cards right now. 1. The average cost of adoption in the United States is $30,000. I don't know about you but we don't have an extra $30,000 to pay upfront for anything right now. If its a private adoption it is less but still upwards of $10,000 for lawyer fees. 2. The wait is insane. In the United States the average wait to adopt is between two and seven years. Then there is fostering. This option is more financially reasonable however the emotions behind fostering are so high. You might have to give the child back to their family. Me personally and I'm sure Jay feels the same way would be absolutely crushed to have to give a child we had been raising back. Sometimes you can eventually adopt the chi

This post is going to be a little more silly, but still relevant to infertility. I have a deep love for anything Disney related. When I was telling a friend about what my husband and I were going through I explained it like this. I said its like the 7 Dwarfs First there is DOC-  This one is self explanatory Jay and I are at the doctor all the way in Roanoke every week. We love our "Doc" but wish she was closer then 45 min away. Next we have Happy- I am so happy that we have a game plan to hopefully help us have a healthy baby. I am happy that we have such an amazing support system of friends and family. I am happy that we have such a big church family. The amount of support Jay and I have had is absolutely incredible. I am happy with my new found relationship with God. I have a lot to be happy for even through this grief. Then there is Grumpy- Anyone that knows me personally knows I get HANGRY and the biggest side effect is grumpiness. Well take that and times it by

Yay I finally have a computer back to write these blogs on!! This week is so special because its National Infertility Awareness week, so I prayed about what to write on this special week. Sure enough like always God answered. I had a friend reach out to me because her and her husband are going through almost the exact same thing as Jay and I. We talked for about and hour but one of the things she said stuck with me the most. She said they often have trouble turning it "off" because it consumes them. This statement was huge and in that moment I realized oh my what a great way to explain it. You see we try to stay busy filling our lives with all these activities and things just to get our minds off of everything going on, yet somehow its still all we think about. I could be smack dab in the middle of Disney World, see a cute baby and automatically start thinking about our infertility. If your going through miscarriage, Infertility, or infant loss it consumes your entir

Today's blog post is going to be true raw emotion. Women who struggle with infertility or miscarriages often feel like they need to "suck it up" and hide their emotions. I am very vocal about infertility and loss yet I find myself feeing like this at times as well. It's a terrible feeling to go through something so heart wrenching and sad but have to suck it up and deal with it for society. It's 2017 and it's still barely talked about openly. Why is that??? 1 in 8 couples have trouble getting pregnant or sustaining a pregnancy. Now let that soak in for a second. I guarantee if you asked the question on any of your social media platforms who has suffered infertility or miscarriages the numbers would be astonishing. But here is the thing , you probably would only know about one or two of them. Us as a society makes it "weird" to openly discuss miscarraige or infertility. After openly speaking up for a year now on miscarriages and infertility I se